BY: LIZ HARDIE
Divorce is near, and mediation is only a few days away
Hopefully, it all goes as planned; this is all she can pray
Her trust in him has vanished, no longer believing any word that comes out of his mouth
Most of their marriage was a lie, his love and his actions, had no truth
So now she enters the final moments of closing this chapter
Excited is an understatement, his narcissistic ways, him being the puppet master
Playing the happy, good wife was exhausting in every way
Yet she did well, to a point, the tears she’d hidden almost every day
She loved her children, staying for them, feeling they deserved a family
However it became pointless; they saw through it and knew she was losing her sanity
In fact, looking back, she does now question if he is capable of loving another
Actions speak louder than words, and time together just seemed to be a bother
Taking the plunge and filing for divorce was the best decision she could have made
She needed to find who she was, find happiness, and needed a clean break
Her whole life, she had always thought love would make her happy
Yes, love is amazing, but she can’t love someone who only loves himself, who controls her mentally
She thought she knew who she was, she knows she doesn’t deserve this, and that’s not going to change
Finally, she found strength, knew what she needed and wanted, his narcissism was done being entertained
Games are not meant to be played with people, especially those you “love”
Unmotivated, selfish, and manipulative, creating his unhappiness, other woman’s attention he was in search of
Any sadness or regrets he feels, he must realize that he brought these on himself
She says to him, “Please stop blaming others for issues you created, blame yourself, no one else”
Divorce is near, and mediation is only a few days away
Hopefully, it all goes as planned; this is all she can pray
Not surprised, he forgot the first mediation, so we are a day away from the divorce mediation, again
She has waited for the divorce to come to a close, he has held it off, what was he trying to gain
Never did she want it to come to this, it should have been simple
She was trying to be nice, wanting it to be quick and easy, just to make it official
Moving on has taken her some time; she has needed time to find herself, to regroup
It is a process; never again will she let her happiness be taken from her, to undergo any more abuse
He can throw his Hail Mary, but she has no feelings towards him or for him anymore
Divorce is near and he finally realizes this, but he made his choice of what is most important to him
She knows what’s important in her life, she knows what she must do, and this starts from within
Positive thoughts every day, she just wants the mediation to go smoothly
Anxiety is running high, knowing she’ll remain kind, she’ll just wait and see
Why does he look for sympathy? Does he have no dignity?
She can honestly admit there is not one part of their relationship or their marriage that she misses
So, here’s to the hopeful closing of this chapter, she has been waiting patiently to do
Despite the pain and distress he has caused us, she still wishes nothing but the very best for him, too
Maybe one day he will open his eyes and his heart to others more than just loving himself
Realize his priorities, stop playing games, stop playing the victim, stop lying, if anything else
Divorce is near, and mediation is only a few days away
Hopefully, it all goes as planned; this is all she can pray
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