BY: LIZ HARDIE
You are a con and a narcissist
Gaining the trust of most people you meet
Reading people, faking smiles and flaunting your charm, you felt like quite the catch
Knowing what to say at the right time, words so sweet
Those damn words, almost all of them stories and lies
A con and I fell hard, fell in love with you
Falling for the hurt I heard in your voice and saw in your eyes
Just a lost boy in the form of a man, taking advantage of a kind heart, so your ego grew
You learned my weaknesses and used them against me daily
Instead of helping me overcome fears, you added to them
Somehow loving you was easy, yet you made me feel lonely at the same time
Everyday, every situation you got your way, never an argument I would win
Joking about Hallmark lines you would throw at me
Words came easy to you, actions not so much
In front of a crowd, you were loving, caring, perfect even some would say
Behind closed doors, you were lazy, in control, a liar, deceiving, I was your crutch
When it was convenient for you to have me, have our family, you were there
Supporting you was expected and not easy, supporting me was not part of your game
The strong man you portrayed was a weak boy broken to the core
Not strong at all, using my kindness against me, to make parents proud, it gave you peace
Also using my beliefs and values against me, you constantly took more and more
No matter what damage you caused anyone, you only cared about you
Your ego, your lifestyle, the perception, it all had to look perfect on the outside
To con, to take and to hurt was easy, to love, to give, that was so difficult
When your “plan” would go south, apologizing was so easy, tears streamed as you cried
I felt those tears were fake, a narcissist has no feelings
Being caught, losing control, that’s not how your game works
Taking me years to realize how fake those tears really were
What were you hiding? That question no longer sits and lurks
You were hiding the real person you are, the narcissist and con
For years you played on my emotions, you never truly loved me
Even as we proceed with our split, your lies continue
Do you really think I am that stupid or naive that the real person you are I can’t see
You still lie, how can you still say you love me after all you put our family through
Honest and kind, will never be words to describe you, at least not from my mouth
I was a sucker, I take full blame and I felt our love was true and real
Being played and played well, I feel now I was a part of your games to only make your parents proud
The narcissist, simply seeking parents constant approval in all you do
I figured it out. I stopped your game before you hurt our family any more
Did approval for our love and family quickly turn to disapproval for the breakup
Through I’m not spiteful, I hope it did, had you been honest with all about being a man whore
Maybe someday being a con will become useless to you and you will try to be kind
Your narcissistic behavior, caring and loving yourself will change to actually loving others
Taking blame for the issues and pain you have caused in so many lives
Instead of pushing those on everyone else, your ego will rise above, admit the wrong
Karma will catch up to you, make no mistake about that
A con you play and you will be caught, consequences you must accept
The ego you have worked so hard to build, will be crushed when you are called out on your lies
Tears you will be crying next will be real, not like the fake one’s you already wept
I have been with this con for too long, your pity party is done
You find your pity from anyone but me, game over
No more sympathy, crutch is broken, you have destroyed the lives of too many
Your narcissistic behavior can no longer emotionally hurt us, a new pain free life we have discovered
I am picking up the pieces, we are broken, walking away and leaving this life behind
The words you speak to the girls and I are now questioned by us all
Once a con and a narcissist, always a con and a narcissist as your needs trump everyone
The girls will always know love, honesty, kindness, respect, I will never let them fall
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